When I
was a kid in Paris, my parents would occasionally ask the one-floor-up neighbor
at 3, rue de la Terrasse, to babysit me. These were rare occasions that I
always enjoyed, since Madame Yelena Sokolov's apartment was far more
interesting than the one I lived in, and she always addressed me as Jeune
(young) Monsieur Thierry.
Mme.
Sokolov was the daughter of a White Russian refugee, and she claimed a direct
if confusing link to Nikolai Alexandrovich Romanov, the last tsar of Russia.
She smelled of lavender. Her white hair was always up in a tight bun; she had
high cheekbones and, in her youth, must have been stunning. My father
occasionally flirted with her--or tried to. She was not particularly amenable
and, in retrospect, it is clear she thought my family was one step up from
barefooted serfdom.
Mme.
Sokolov fixed herself three complete meals each day and never ate leftovers.
Sometimes, when I was in her apartment, she would set the table for one with
two forks, two knives, three glasses and two linen napkins--one for the main
course and one for desert, which was usually sherbet in a silver cup. I was
never invited to sit at her table. I had a special small chair, and was given a
tray to balance on my knees, which I did fearfully. She served me minute
amounts of her own minute servings. I remember veal in a sweetly bitter sauce,
fish so white it dazzled the eye, tiny potatoes no bigger than grapes.
Everything she cooked, she consumed. When she ate, it was with both hands on
the table, holding a fork with the tines pointed downward, and a small, very
sharp knife. Her back was absolutely straight, and if mine was not, she would
mutter, “Le dos, Jeune Monsieur Thierry. Le dos.”
I
remember thinking it must be very sad to always cook for one's self.
Now I
do it two or three times a week, sometimes sadly, other times not. I seldom set
the table, though I always sit and think eating while standing is a crime of
taste. My cooking repertoire is rather limited. I make a good
Salade Niçoise and decent shepherd's pie. My ratatouille is famous. I
occasionally bake, more often grill, and on rare occasions invite people to my
home to eat.
Sometime
back I told a young friend--a lovely mother of two and accomplished
businesswoman--of Madame Sokolov's lonely culinary exploits, and where I had
seen aloneness, my friend saw a wonderful expression and reward of the self.
She may be right. Madame Sokolov never once evinced the slightest hint of
melancholy. She was proud, kind in a manner that no longer exists,
self-contained, her manners impeccable. She had an elegance that brooked no
nonsense and the manners of an exiled princess which, for all I know, is
precisely what she was.
I have
no idea what became of Madame Sokolov. Her name, it turns out, is among
the most common in Russia. It is cited in a 1920's book titled "The Last
Days of the Romanovs." Grigori Sokolov is a celebrated pianist.
Alexander Sokolov is a champion armwrestler. Authors, painters, and
several families in Minnesota also bear the name. I doubt her history will ever
be known. But I think of her teaching manners to a small child of another
culture, cooking alone in a minuscule kitchen, among the last of her class
and bearing, a proud survivor of the Russian revolution. I hope she was
celebrating herself.
Love this one, Thierry!!
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